$Happy Memorial Day$

Today was a day of remembering those that have bravely died for our country and those that courageous currently serve our homeland. We also remember those that we have lost that are important to us. We have all lost someone close to us and today is a day of special remembrance. I have lost my birth mother, a dear friend, and most recently a grammie. There are many others that I have lost but these 3 people are who I think of on Memorial Day. None the less, neither is more important than the others. We must celebrate life for it is like the dew and is only here for a moment.
Today I spent most of the day cleaning and trying to get the house in good working order before we leave this Friday. The laundry is finally totally done and put away! For me that is an amazing accomplishment lol. All that is left is the living room needs some picking up and mopped, and I have decided that it can wait until tomorrow lol or Wednesday. I am growing anxious for our trip for it brings much excitement. It has been a VERY long time since Keith and I have gotten away. I am hoping that it will bring some of the fire back. Flames baby...FlAmEs!!!!
Tomorrow I begin Clinical Procedures II with my fav professor, Mrs. Sellers. She has been a god send to me at Brown Mackie. She is extremely patient with me and has taught me in two (soon to be 3) months more than I have learned in almost two years in college. Her light air about her always brings a smile to my face. Her no nonsence or as she calls it "a coming to grammie" has instilled in me an attitude to never settle for less than my best. She has faith in me, that I can't see in myself. So needless to say that I am excited to go back to school tomorrow. I have to go Tuesday, off Wednesday, school Thursday, and leaving Friday!
So time to bust my buns and finish all that needs to be done before my vacation!

Quick update..and Suga Rashad Evans

Well it has been a little bit since I have blogged, so I figured I would drop in for a second. This weekend I purchase Rock Band Legos and Guitar Hero Aerosmith. Spent the morning playing with the family and it was fun! I have really enjoyed play GH Aerosmith on Xbox live...battling against other players! So fun! I am very thankful that there is no school tomorrow as I am not feeling good this evening. We are preparing to go on our weekend getaway and I am both excited and a lil leary of going. There is so much to get done this week before we leave. I am so happy that I have finally gotten all the laundry washed and tomorrow will work on getting it all put away.
Been a little emotional lately. Seem to be overwhelmed by just about everything that comes my way. I feel neglected and I am sure that is more of just what I am feeling, than the reality of it. I feel misplaced, from not feeling good and wish that I could get to feeling better so that I can get out and about. The weather has left alot to be desired so I have not yet missed any hot, tanning weather...yet! I am hoping that while we are in LA and Las Vegas that I can soak up some sun and get a good start on a beautiful tan. The kiddos have season passes to roaring springs and so I am sure that once the weather gets better we will be found at your neighborhood water park quite often.
Last night we tried to lay down and watch the movie The Book Of Eli and well ya we know that when I sit down to watch a movie more than not I fall asleep....So tonight is round 2...
Oh and before I go, I want to give a shout out to Suga Rashad Evans, who was counted as the under dog in UFC fight last night, and went three rounds with Rampage...and those who love the UFC, such as myself, know that he WON~! So much for all the trash talking Page fans who had their meat pies stuffed back in their face...on that note...~happy eating :P~

~Bald is Beautiful~

So on Friday, after going to the hair salon to get a trim, it was discovered that I have bald spots. Even on day two I am still having an emotional melt down. Amazing how much a woman cherishes her hair. How it is a big part of her self esteem and who she is. Trying to forget that it's there is impossible. Self-conscious wondering if people can see it. I am really just wanting to shave my head and wear a wig. My lovely husband is not keen of this idea. UGHHHH...I am guessing the subconsciously, I feel, that if I shave my head I am taking control of the situation. I feel so out of control with everything that has been going on with me physically, that this is one thing I can do. I did try to get a hair cut that hides the spots but the day after and it is getting visibly thinner and more patches are appearing....Emotional decompression worked for a moment, but the inability to shake the feel of what is going on, is difficult for me to handle. So for now, I will remain a half bald person....until I shave it...

*SuMmEr Is AlMoSt HeRe*

Sitting here with freshly juiced carrot and celery juice(could think of a million things that taste better) and anticipating the warm weather predicted for today. It was so stimulating to wake up to the sun shining through the slats of the blinds. So excited for the warm weather coming up. I really enjoy being in the sun and especially in the water. I sometimes wonder why I wasn't born a fish :P. This weekend has some BIG plans, but I am still waiting to see if I will feel well enough to participate in those plans. Keith is going to golf tomorrow with the Boise State Wrestling Team doing some fundraising. I am supposed to attend a dear friends graduation party :D. So sorry this morning's blog is so blah....have a gooooood day!

*You Are Your Own *

Unleash the demon of anger built within our human clay. Not knowing at times where it was bred nor where emotion finds the adequate space to hide. Taking all your physical might to supress the killer who will crucify the spirit within you. Verbally conducting in a manner in which to hide the cuts and bruises, the bleeding heart you hold in your hands. Feeling unable to stop the vicious circle which only drowns you deeper under the bloody water. Handcuffed by the inability to release your fear, and to follow the dreams you fall asleep to at night. Slowly sinking to the bottom of the well, looking up to see the dim light at the top. With every last amount of strength you can muster, you kick with ferverance to reach the top. Every moment in your measly shell flashes before your blinded eyes. You are your own demise and hold your life within the very hands the sands of the sea flows through. As the sands of the sea are unnumbered so is your aptitude to dream bigger than the sea. Stand on the beach, sand passing through your phlanges, throw to the wind, and let the dream fly.

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