~Bald is Beautiful~

So on Friday, after going to the hair salon to get a trim, it was discovered that I have bald spots. Even on day two I am still having an emotional melt down. Amazing how much a woman cherishes her hair. How it is a big part of her self esteem and who she is. Trying to forget that it's there is impossible. Self-conscious wondering if people can see it. I am really just wanting to shave my head and wear a wig. My lovely husband is not keen of this idea. UGHHHH...I am guessing the subconsciously, I feel, that if I shave my head I am taking control of the situation. I feel so out of control with everything that has been going on with me physically, that this is one thing I can do. I did try to get a hair cut that hides the spots but the day after and it is getting visibly thinner and more patches are appearing....Emotional decompression worked for a moment, but the inability to shake the feel of what is going on, is difficult for me to handle. So for now, I will remain a half bald person....until I shave it...