Have you ever heard the expression: Walk a mile in my shoes, and then judge me?
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
~Continuing To Be~
The definition of existing is said " to continue to be" (The Free Dictionary). While social norms and cultures have input of who we become, they don't entirely mold us as children. As we begin to age we make conscious choices that begin the mold of adulthood. At this point we can catch the "norms" our parents displayed and choose to follow in those "norms" or begin to make "norms" of our own. I am a firm believer that products of environments can be conceived as "norms" when in reality they are just twisted figments of someone's destructive behaviors. I try to look at myself and they ways that I behave and I am seeing that while at one point I felt I was just a by product of my environment, I now see what I carry from that. This would be referred to as the "baggage" that comes from past relationships. In order to save one's self from being another by product (while never guaranteed that it won't happen again) there are certain defense modes that one retreats to in order to protect themselves. While these mechanisms, in probability, never truly protect us, we revert to them in hopes of saving ourselves from further inflicted damage. One may find an attitude to use in which to cope, that they use to have continuity. Absolute survival of the fittest and fitting oneself in any way possible. So continuing to be.......is this survival, or this looking at who we are and making ourselves into the person, we used to be, want to be, dream to be, long to be, or we just going to be....
Monday, September 5, 2011
Swing For The Fences
Seems like life has wicked curve balls, that never seem to stop. While the speed of the pitch may waiver, it seems they are constantly coming. No sooner than you swing than you being thrown a strike in which you fail to swing, and thus begins the count. First it's one, than two, before you know it you are struggle to stay in play. The game goes on with or without you, and if you choose not to play, the consequences can be a price to high to be paid.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Confusion
It's been a long while since I have put my thoughts to "paper." I have tried to hold them in and work them out within myself before I let them out. I can honestly say that they are not anymore worked out than they were before. I am struggling with several areas in my life but have maintained the attitude that "this to shall pass". Sometimes decisions are made on emotion and not carefully thought through. Sometimes you reach a point in your life that thinking seems to influence your decision in a negative way. Follow your heart is what they say, but your heart doesn't always know what is right for you. You can want something with all of your heart, but that doesn't mean that it is the right thing, or that it will work out. I know what I want in my life and the only person that is holding me back is me. I have dreams and ambitions that not everyone else understands but than again who cares what they understand. I have tried to live my life caring for others, and yet I seem to hurt everyone that I love. I have given of my cup freely and yet it sits here empty. People take and take and yet for some to give a morsel is asking for blood. I have come to a point in my life that I must reevaluate my life and the choices that I have made to this point. Life is something that must be worked at. Happiness is a choice. Loving is a choice that opens the gate for pain. You can love with another with all your heart. You can only be true to yourself and hope that another will love you for the person that you are. Love you with all your imperfections and find the little things in life to love you for. You are not supposed to busy yourself with the petty things in life that bring no positive influence in your life. You are supposed to fight for what you love. What if the fight in you is gone? What if you are not sure that it's something that you want to fight for? When is the line drawn for how much you can give of yourself? Every girl dreams of that fairy tale and often times life hypes up those dreams and yet there is no one who can fulfill those dreams. So is this because we dream to big? Is it that we want something that is virtually impossible? We cannot change a person into whom we want them to be. We have to love them for who they are, what they do and what they believe. Compromise is a talent that must be learned and respected from both parties. Words should never be spoken in hurt, promises not made to only be broken and feelings understood and not trampled on. Working every moment, living for the moments. Careful consideration taken for what another is going through. Not focusing on only yourself but your family in it's entirety. Taking it day by day and not filling today with the worries of tomorrow...
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
~My Kryptonite~
I took a walk around the world to
Ease my troubled mind
I left my body laying somewhere
In the sands of time
I watched the world float to the dark
Side of the moon
I feel there is nothing I can do, yeah
You called me strong, you called me weak
But your secrets I will keep
You took for granted all the times I
Never let you down
You stumbled in and bumped your head, if
Not for me then you would be dead
I picked you up and put you back
On solid ground
If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I'm alive and well will you be
There holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side with my
Superhuman might
Kryptonite
-3 Doors Down- Kryptonite
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Sunday, January 2, 2011
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